When you talk about something empty like nothing, there gets a lots of words, they seem could show my ambition and make me look like aggressive. So I write it every year.

2020 is a disaster to the most of people, but it still cannot be a reason to explain my empty achieve (It should be the best opportunity to change myself).

I don't want to say "I lose this year" again, but the truth seems is it.

Please remember:

  1. I still have no job.
  2. I still have no wife/gf.
  3. I may not be young anymore.
  4. I'm still overweight.

contents above were writen before 2021

To be honst, I didn't want to post it here before, So I locked it until now.

I want to add something new and post it here.

contents below were writen in 2021

As you can see, I don't like myself even hate myself, I wrote many post to complain myself, I don't want others know that, So I lock them like what I said.

I do need a place to release my stress, I have friends, but I don't know how to express what I feel and I don't think they could help me either.

In other word: It's my work, I must handle it by self

For next year's main theme: "Don't be lazy, just working harder and I'll like myself".

I watched Evangelion in 2018 and watch it again recently, first time I watch just know what the story is, this time I get more than story itself -- "Try to like yourself"

Hating self is common in otaku, the author Anno Hideaki wants them to go outside, meet the real world, rethink and like themself.

In this year, I hope I could like myself. with a better mood, the inner world will become brighter.

I will add one to the list:

  1. Give me more patient, I am slow heat type.

Don't beg others to like you before you like yourself. Be a better self, that's it.


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