When you talk about something empty like nothing, there gets a lots of words, they seem could show my ambition and make me look like aggressive. So I write it every year.
2020 is a disaster to the most of people, but it still cannot be a reason to explain my empty achieve (It should be the best opportunity to change myself).
I don't want to say "I lose this year" again, but the truth seems is it.
- I still have no job.
- I still have no wife/gf.
- I may not be young anymore.
- I'm still overweight.
contents above were writen before 2021
To be honst, I didn't want to post it here before, So I locked it until now.
I want to add something new and post it here.
contents below were writen in 2021
As you can see, I don't like myself even hate myself, I wrote many post to complain myself, I don't want others know that, So I lock them like what I said.
I do need a place to release my stress, I have friends, but I don't know how to express what I feel and I don't think they could help me either.
In other word: It's my work, I must handle it by self
For next year's main theme: "Don't be lazy, just working harder and I'll like myself".
I watched Evangelion in 2018 and watch it again recently, first time I watch just know what the story is, this time I get more than story itself -- "Try to like yourself"
Hating self is common in otaku, the author Anno Hideaki wants them to go outside, meet the real world, rethink and like themself.
In this year, I hope I could like myself. with a better mood, the inner world will become brighter.
I will add one to the list:
- Give me more patient, I am slow heat type.
Don't beg others to like you before you like yourself. Be a better self, that's it.